Why Not Now.

i've said all i have to say. i see no point in suffering here alone anymore. not worth it anymore. i was damn wrong. wrong from the start. too impulsive. thought that you were the right one. thought that we were really awesome. thought that i would really last with you. thought that if i try to change things back for the better you would at least try to cooperate with me. thought that you would at least would try to get me back. nothing. i was too blinded to not see that you no longer feel for me. hahaha. all guys are the same. sterotype so? none i met yet proved me wrong. once the kick is over its over. so i am here, still emoing long time big time by myself and you gave no hoot about it. seriously?you didnt know what to do? so im supposed to know? im hanging in the middle of nowhere desperately trying to grab hold of things but what you did you do? pretend nothing happened? seriously. i had enough. i would be damn dumb if i continue to suffer by myself. enough of all these. i dont deserve any of these at all. and since when did i became so aggressive? when am i ever gna learn my mistakes. jialing study please study hard. i cant afford to let anything pull my grades further down already. mind over matter mind over matter.

those who made me cry are not worth it. those who are worth it wont make me cry. why suffer when i can choose to be happy?