im tired. of pretending that everything is alright. something is wrong. is it that people dont realise it, or is it that they are pretending as well? its really frustrating me. cause i really dont know what to do. its in the middle of nowhere. i tried to do something but hell, it changed nothing. nothing at all. im really amazed how nothing changed.

someone tell me what can i do, what should i do. im really lost. I love you and miss you. Well, when’s the last time we told each other that?

Im sick of all those times when we actually pretended to be alright and happy and everything nice else while in fact, we dont mean more than half of the smiley faces we gave.

When is all these gna change? It really sucks when i tried to do something but it only end up with me being the one trying to look for trouble and stirring up things but no one will understand how frustrated i am and what leads me to behaving like this, like a stupid bitch.

Think about it. which is worse? Someone who tries to make a fuss so that things will change back for the better, or someone who’s not trying to do anything for the situation. Im really frustrated. i dont want to let go of anything that was oh so precious and meant so much. But how can i put it across? I dont know how to do it. i would hold on as long as i could. But if its getting nowhere, why should i? Maybe this is just the post honeymoon period. And i really need to adapt better at all these.

im capable of holding things like how you did as well. but if i do, where will we be going? we promised not to keep things. and im not planning to. but if this continues, we're gna both explode soon.

this is prob not the year for any romance. well im just gna give my best shot at it. at least i know that i tried my best. at least, i tried.